Exhilarating and excruciating. Frustrating but fun. Grueling yet glorious.
If you’re called to anything of any value, particularly and especially in the Kingdom of God, you can identify with all of the above on any given day. My journey with writing has been a love/hate relationship. I love writing, I hate writing. I start, I stop. I’m inspired, then distracted. I stand up, I get knocked down. Today I’m getting back up. For the gazillionth time…
Just about 16 months ago, I walked away from this blog because I felt it had come to an end. A few months later, I attempted a brand new blog. It fizzled out. I fizzled out. And then, in the busyness of life, writing got buried. I made everything a priority but that. When I wanted to go back to it, I got overwhelmed at the thought of figuring out Google Analytics and the expected number of tweets per day. Not to mention, the weight of the call. I majored in the minors and minored in the majors.
But I made a decision (that started with asking others to pray for me). Rather than getting distracted by the “right” blog layout or the “right” social media presence or the “right” stock image to match my content, I’m going to write.
I need to write, not be right.
Forget all that other stuff. I will never have the perfect blog post or online presence. I can’t be bothered with all that extra. That’s not what I’m meant to do or be. I’m called to simply write and let God do the rest. Focusing on stupid details took me away from the joy of writing and encouraging others. I miss that joy. A lot.
I figured there was no need to start from scratch or to waste time attempting a “clever” new idea. I’m just gonna come home to the blog where it all began.
pressing on toward the goal.
Pressing on defines my journey. It only seems
right write to come back. 🙂
So, here I am. The pressing on prodigal. But I’m home and ready to write with all my heart as unto the Lord.
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord. (Colossians 3:23)
Maybe your thing isn’t writing. Maybe it’s music or education or a business venture. Maybe it’s a conversation with a family member that you’ve avoided for a long time. Maybe it’s the decision to pick up your dusty Bible and crack open the pages again or the courage to forgive someone who hurt you. It could be opening your heart to a dream that died. Or even opening your heart to God.
Whatever it is, it’s not too late. There’s new mercy and fresh grace to take the next step today. I encourage you to go forward. Don’t get overwhelmed about what others might think or say. Don’t put unrealistic pressure on yourself (story of my life). Just dive in and trust God. It’s crazy but it’s okay. He leads us because He loves us. And He’s always worth it.
***Thank you to the friends and loved ones who faithfully pray for me and encourage me to press on and get back in the flow of writing. Even when I wanted to give up, you wouldn’t let me and that means more to me than you will ever know.